[Alucard knows what that touch means. And he's grateful for it, even if this has nothing to do with the incident that demanded this thing's creation to begin with. He waits for the hand to withdraw, then leans back a little bit in the chair.
Name the thing. Pin it down. Then deal with it. That's all the logic was in the end, and how very Trevor it was.]
There are no good solutions, as you said. The natural one falls to me, and none of us want that. What the role requires, really requires is fundamentally against how I have been raised. [One hand gestures to his mother's portrait. Enough said.] Even if I took it on with all of my usual opinions, it is a lifetime appointment. This is the kind of work that drags one down. We all know that.
But I cannot abide the complete destruction of my father's people either. There are still parts of the Hold that I avoid or actively do not catalog, you know that's why. [Why all the vampire skulls have long been covered up with simple cloths.] And they keep so many other equally worse things at bay too, and that fact cannot be discounted.
[He crosses one leg over the other.]
So I ask about other solutions under the rather stupid idea that there will be some magic words said that creates a balance of what I wish to do, which is have nothing more than a quiet life with you both, versus what is best for this country, what is my responsibility for contributing to the current situation, and bluntly, a birthright and expectation. Not that the last two parts were ever in place or even articulated, my father's death was never anticipated that I was so prepared for the work.
no subject
[Alucard knows what that touch means. And he's grateful for it, even if this has nothing to do with the incident that demanded this thing's creation to begin with. He waits for the hand to withdraw, then leans back a little bit in the chair.
Name the thing. Pin it down. Then deal with it. That's all the logic was in the end, and how very Trevor it was.]
There are no good solutions, as you said. The natural one falls to me, and none of us want that. What the role requires, really requires is fundamentally against how I have been raised. [One hand gestures to his mother's portrait. Enough said.] Even if I took it on with all of my usual opinions, it is a lifetime appointment. This is the kind of work that drags one down. We all know that.
But I cannot abide the complete destruction of my father's people either. There are still parts of the Hold that I avoid or actively do not catalog, you know that's why. [Why all the vampire skulls have long been covered up with simple cloths.] And they keep so many other equally worse things at bay too, and that fact cannot be discounted.
[He crosses one leg over the other.]
So I ask about other solutions under the rather stupid idea that there will be some magic words said that creates a balance of what I wish to do, which is have nothing more than a quiet life with you both, versus what is best for this country, what is my responsibility for contributing to the current situation, and bluntly, a birthright and expectation. Not that the last two parts were ever in place or even articulated, my father's death was never anticipated that I was so prepared for the work.