[ Is enough of an answer for him, but probably not for anyone else. He hates this. He hates every bit of this. And there are only a few things remaining that havn't been spoiled. The intimacy the three of them share, as far as any of them yet know, is one of them. And this- this will spoil it. How could it not?
The one fucking thing in the world that makes him feel safe. But he needs his hands. If he can't use the whip, he's as much nothing as if he was turned. ]
Ugh. Thigh. I don't use a whip with my thigh.
[ He wants to cry and scream and vomit, possibly all at the same time. He wants a drink. He wants a drink so, so badly, to be in that space where everything is warm and softened and muted and all he needs to do is sleep. ]
no subject
[ Is enough of an answer for him, but probably not for anyone else. He hates this. He hates every bit of this. And there are only a few things remaining that havn't been spoiled. The intimacy the three of them share, as far as any of them yet know, is one of them. And this- this will spoil it. How could it not?
The one fucking thing in the world that makes him feel safe. But he needs his hands. If he can't use the whip, he's as much nothing as if he was turned. ]
Ugh. Thigh. I don't use a whip with my thigh.
[ He wants to cry and scream and vomit, possibly all at the same time. He wants a drink. He wants a drink so, so badly, to be in that space where everything is warm and softened and muted and all he needs to do is sleep. ]